Life is Everything

All those lifeless things was hitting me 
When I was walking down the lane
highly injured and so in pain.
That time
To me, blood meant life,
ripping off from every cut on my body.
And I was waiting to die.

All those lifeless things was hitting me
As i scrumbled upon the ground
And to me Blood meant life.

All those lifeless things was hitting me 
when I was recalling everything I've seen
And I was waiting to die.

With every slow blink of my eye, 
I wish I could donate blood to the dead trees on those busy streets,
So that world could forever believe in those greets
Cause to me Blood meant life.

With every slow blink of my eye, 
I wish I could donate blood to the dreams of a poor child
To see those laughters and the smile so mild
Cause to me Blood meant life.

With every slow blink of my eye, 
I wish I could donate blood to every broken hope 
Of the boy who hanged himself through a rope
Cause to me blood meant life.

With every slow blink of my eye, 
I wish I could donate blood to those blind eyes
To let them see the colourfull world
and the star-full sky, 
Cause to me blood meant life.

With every last blink of my eye, 
I wish I could donate blood to my lifeless pen
Wishing it to write more metaphors it did, but again,
Cause to me Blood meant life.

All those lifeless things was hitting me
As I was lying on the ground
Waiting to die
Cause to me Blood meant life.

Song of Me

If my Imagination could sing, It would sing a beautiful Melody that everyone would dance and world would become a better place...

If my Eyes could sing, it would Sing the truth and There'll be no escape..

If my pen could sing, It would sing, so loud, that paper alone will no more have to cry in corner for serenity

If my brain could sing, It would obviously sing for prosperity that my report card will never make it's way out of its own shell.

The Shadow of Deceit

And then, When there is none

Most of the time when i cry,
I've got a scar to heal,
A pain to be felt,
Even if its only me in condemn,
It'll always be only me to conceal,
To confront,
And then, when there is none
I look right in the mirror and say
"See, a shadow of deceit. " 

A shadow of deceit,
smirked to the wicked you,
acquainted I call you,
"hello! make yourself feel like home",
handshakes and the hugs,
And hence permit you to 
Add an another flavor to my version of sad,
And then, when there is none,
I look right in the mirror and whisper
" I hope I wish....."
But all I can see is a shadow of deceit.

A shadow of deceit,
Stood still one day,
"It's the thing with people"
It say
"they are More like:
top most leaf of the tallest tree
swirl differently in with every other wind strokes",
And then, when there is none,
I want to sit back quiet
And listen to people when they talk in sleep,
And their inked heart when they don't believe,
So to reach the darkness they meet,
'Cause the shadow always deceits.

When the world went quite,
In the blessings and In the curse,
In the praise and In the worse,
And even if its only me in condemn,
It'll only be me to conceal,
To confront,
And then, when there is none,
I look right in the mirror and,
The shadow of deceit
Got it's face in me.
                      -Manvii Kardam

Paradise

Every today turning tomorrow

Got me a wish to see the Paradise that I always believe

If the universe is in the nutshell

And time is such brief

If the god created the integer

And the world as einestine see

So where is the paradise I always believe ?

When i first got off from your lap

And tried to see

But then I had a fall

And you cried for me

But still I got your hand to hold

So this would the paradise I’ll always believe.

When the ants struggles to find a survival

And always make a team

Then they win the world

By the rottens and the left over they seek

Then such in the middle

The slutiness of time

They are carried to the end

By the gaints they see

So where is the paradise that I can always believe

When the sand struggles

To have the dew it hardly meet

‘Cause slutiness of time again reaches it’s peek

But still th dark ends

And it finally rains

So is this the paradise of struggles I had always believed ?

When I was offered the negative slopes

Which unables me to travel with broken hopes

And when i felt left uon

I cried to the peek

 And you  cried with me

And i got your hand to hold

So is this the paradise that i can always believe ?

If up above the world so high

There lie a humangous space

And stars so bright

And infinites that are still expanding

And we’ve got the one

Where the slut time loses it’s win

Is this where the circle become complete?

And maybe this is the paradise that can comfort me

In the sun light

And the moon

In the dawn

And in the dusk

We can always have a hand to hold

And even every one of us got two

So this must be the paradise I always seek that I can now truly believe

‘Cause the beauty of everything is the paradise itself.

                               Manvi Kardam

From Most of the Things I Remembered From Childhood.

From most of the things I remembered from childhood

Running fast and dodging the wild cars

Ended up in an empty street

Dark and steady

I ran, I fell

I fell, I tried

I tried, I scream

I scream and I woke up

I woke up in lights

Bright and moving

I was safe and sound

Moving and happy

And I was safe and sound

Happy and frightened

But I was safe and sound

From most of the things I remembered from childhood

When moon was the only thing

To look up and to dream about

I was 3

Being effortless I kept on counting

The endless ocean of stars

Moon being the king

And stars being the people

Peaceful as still water

And from the stories my momma told me

“And baby,  people don’t manage without the king”

She said

So my 3 years old soul asked the stars

“How do they?”

From most of the things I remembered from childhood.

Kicking the ball with my 7 years old feet

Wandering reckless in all those lively streets

Childhood kept swimming in wide ocean of muddy pants and mickey mouse t-shirt

And in balanced on-off switches

So when I start to count the endless ocean of star

1-2-3-4--- wait

“Stars, I have a wish to be completed”

Then I realise my effortless mind wandered away

From most of the things I remember from childhood.

Happy birthday they sing

To the 13 years old me

Gifts and wishes

None of the blisters and bruises

And me, I was up to my head in happiness

Learned to make friends

Running with all those crazy trends

Jumping around the fences

They made for me

And counting the stars went un-noticed by me

But, one thing that I never forget

The sack full of unsatisfactions and complaints I had

And childhood ?

Childhood is somewhere in the way to meet the shoreline

From most of the things I remembered from childhood.

Trapped in the great fuss

Making promises, I was 15

Some drift apart

Some fall into my part

Looking at the beauty of sky

Remembered the time

1-2-3 counting the stars

Missing my old days

I learned How to cry alone

And childhood?

Childhood already crossed the shoreline

From most of the things I remember from childhood.

So when I turned 17

My thoughts starts to meet page

Making different abstracts

Different patterns on the blank page

 Always keep trying to make

Constellations out of  words

I was on the very way of becoming a poet

Looked at the sky bearing a sunset

“The way the purple clouds refuses to blend

With the blue sky

Its beautiful”

“And the very edge of earth

 from where the universe starts

 its beautiful”

“The way the heart refuses

 to stop beating

 for the thing called passion

 its beautiful”

I wrote

And being a song lover

Everytime when john lennon  hit my head

I count “on” stars this time

1-2-3 and ask

“how do they manage to be in peace”

“can’t we?”

Opened my phone

“No matter how many land mines erupt in a minute but be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life”

I read.

                       -Manvii Kardam

Behind The Veil.

The day when I was born

Soft and pink and a li’l girl

Warm in her gaurdians hands

Crying hard and hard, proofing being alive

Proofing the presence of mine

And was innocent behind the veil

The day when I first spoke

Ans smiled through my li’l face

Making my gaurdians happy

Proofing being their’s

Proofing they are mine

And was naiive behind the veil

Somedays later when I grew older

Wishing something high

Remarking everything mine

In such ridiculous attempts

You still granted my wish

But I wasn’t cruel behind the veil

Then the day arrived

When I lied to you

Hide things from you

Shouted out loud at you

And behaved like I love myself only

Was I truly a monster behind the veil ?

The day in our lives

When strangers turn friends

I was in every possible way

To let them love me

Doing things for them

Doing things according to them

Those unconditions

I was excited in front and behind the veil

The time in my life

When he left me

And my tears to shed

And happiness to fade

Tore me apart

You helped me I’m not out of it

But you helped me

He was a good one

And you helped me

I was gloomy and you were generous

In front and behind the veil

Then the sparkling

I found love

Tall, cute and perhaps and generous soul

The generous soul tore me aprart

Tears to shed

Happiness to fade

‘Cause sparkling is not just a bright light

It always occur from the blast behind the veil

Years from now

When I’ll be a woman of 30’s

Upbringing my kids

Nicely, softly, strictly but lovingly

Will I be a good mentor ?

Or will they understand who I am behind the veil ?

And then the day will come

When I’ll die

Soft and pink and an old woman

Warm in her bed

Analysing my whole life

Will surely turn to figure out

I was and am truly kind behind the veil.

                                   Manvi Kardam

When I Lost You.

I can always feel the sensations

Of giggles we shared

And the sound of your laughters

We had

I wish, I could reach

To the last time we meet

But the mute of your sound

Is all I’m around

And the silence of your phone

Says you’re not coming home

                            -Manvii Kardam

JUST

If somthing fades to grey then let it

So when you’ll burst into colour life will turn euphoric..

I Will.

When words don't come easy

I'll always speak for you

When it all became hard

I'll surely cry for you

And handle to make the way through

When the world seem dark

I promise i will expand myself for you

When you feel being trapped in vail

I'll give my vision to you

When you’ll find everything hopeless

I’ll give you dreams

And the imagination to see

When you acheive the peek happiness

I'll smile my heart out with you

And in any cases

I'll always be there for you

The day since you were born

I was born only and only for you

to the day when you will die

I will be dead with you

You and i were, are and will be always together

and hey! what you call me

Yes! "the eyes"

                               Manvi Kardam

INFINITES

Not the brightest star of the sky

But the brightest one to my infinite

There you’ll always be

The one to look up, the one to stare at

To talk with, about all our infinites

The pain of losing you is million-trillion times big

Unmentionable, literal unbearable

But the infinites of your memories

Better I say our memories are larger then the trillion one’s

“Some infinites are simply bigger than the other infinites”

Now when the passage of time roll on

I try not to cry but then I cry,

Not wanting to stop my tears

It’s so true that I’ll always be watiing for you

To come,

You to hang out with me

Shouting out my name even louder than you ever could

My li’l eyes will never lose the sparkle of watching you

You standing in front of me and smiling

My li’l eyes will never ever wanted to lose you

To let go of you

And I promise, I’ll never let go

Every now and then when i look up to the sky

Sky full of clouds

I look up in the hope of finding you

As though the li’l kid watches the rainbow

As that to catch the rainbow

But back then when I found you

I literally caught the golden colour of it

Every now and then when I look up to the sky

When I see no clouds

I was there to feel the emptiness of sky

Everytime when I’ll pass the empty street

I’ll always know I’m not walking in sigularity

It’ll always be you with me

I’ll always wait for you at this edge

And i know,

You’ll wait for me at the either edge

Beyond all our infinites..

                                 Manvi Kardam

The Humongous Zero

And here I am
This is me
Me and the world so,
Carrying the clash of feelings
Because of the greatest irony
The world is a humangous zero

Your true smile
Flicker around me everytime
Your pure care Hover around me everytime
The thought of you Makes me strong everytime
The world is not a wish grangting factory
Butr still you granted my every wish
I really love you from the deep core
They say we never bring anything with us
And the irony,
The world is a humangous zero
But I have you I have it positive

The blue sky loses it’s shade when I lost you
The hazel eyes loses it’s grace when I lost you
The defeat and the truimph is in oneself
Then finding of you, will surely lie in me as well
They say we never bring anything with us
And what a irony,
The world is a humangous zero
But I gained a negative from you


The beauty of nature, seems fictional but truth
The power of mankind, seems truth but a ficition
But as the moon carries the dark and the light
The world became complete,
My world became complete when I found you
As the flowers and the sun stands for each other
You stands for me and I assure you I stands you
Without rain there’s no rainbow
Without you there is no me
I can be me when I’m around you
You and I is our infinite
They say we never bring anything with us
And the irony began
The world is a humangous zero
And I gained positve with you

The blue sky became deep blue when i saw you
The hazel eyes became green when I saw you
The defeat and the triumph is in oneself
Then Having you by my side will be my triumph
But again I had a defeat
They say we never bring anything with us
And the irony,
The world is a humangous zero
But not having you turned it negative

And here I am all summed up with my life so far,
With all it’s negatives and positives
And this time the irony stands true,
The world is a humangous zero
But I carry it with and calmness and you ?
                                     Manvi Kardam

GRAVITY

When sky high swing set
Turned silent
When pleasant flowers
Lost their scent
When the palms turned pale
And those faded tales

When the facts be just the facts
Neither reason nor the cause
And sunset be just the sunset
Not the time running from my hand
Silent and serene
That is the very day i felt
The ever present Gravity
                              -Manvii Kardam

MONSTER INSIDE US

There's a Little Monster
Inside Everyone
I've seen Mine a Few Times, 
In 18 Years
And yours 
A Million Times

There's a Little Monster
Inside Everyone
You've seen mine
A Million Times
And yours
A few times in Lifetime

SILENCE

From the very moment you think of it or
              you say it , you start to feel it ..

Maybe that's why I love the word quiet

                                  - Manvi Kardam

My Presence

At Times I miss your fingers on my body 
And Your hands on my edges
Even if You've been so mean to me all this time
Considering me at last, when none other left
But i still wait for my presence to be felt

That a patient diary said.

One Day I'll Confess

I know one day I'll confess this
Before you, going away
I know one day I'll confess this
Before you, leaving my hand
I know one day I'll confess this
Before a day gone without seeing your face
I know one day I'll confess this
Before it's too late.. 
I know one day I'll confess I love you
Before it's long gone too far.

DEPRESSION

Dear Stranger,

I seriously couldn't explain my depression to you

How I feel about the people around me

How I feel about the places i visit,
And about the places I'm not supposed to be at.

The dream i see

The situation i meet 

and most of all how i see myself,

How i take myself

and treat myself

The depression i feel is not that kind you see in Eminem's lyrics

or u hear from suicide's stories 

It's that you could possible say a synonym of sad

like you want to reach out all the places you wish you could 

to touch all the tiny flowers you wish you could

to talk to that one person you wish you could

the way you felt when you know they lied this time

when you know this not gonna last...

for every person you don't wanna lose but you know ....

when you feel sad for every tik-tok of the clock on your wrist..

about every sound you feel bad at 

about every sound you feel lovable at ..

that eternal desire for something real.

i don't know if the world haunts me or its me only

but something has taken over the optimist in me ..

felt like to cry for no reason around

but everything around in here ..

I remember the novel i read few months ago where you reach the end of the whole book but couldn't understand her reason of depression and then there'll be a point where you're crystal clear about it ...

I don't know if i am the one who prefer being like this or it's just everything around me ..

You simply cannot blame anything other or maybe you simply can ..

But at points i want me to dance around for some reasons and at some feels like .. simply lie on my bed under the blankets lights off and listening to the quiet around me ...

Its like when you're heart slows for a min 

And all you gotta be is silent..

Turn off the music listen to the quite..

play with the emotions inside you like play guitar 

its all an irony and the game of metaphors ...

Love And Distance